149. Don't Try to Preserve the Temporary

Some people come into our lives for a season. Sometimes a day job is nothing more than a temporary pit stop on our way to our heart's true desires. But, when we fall into routine and flirt with the dangers of being comfortable, something strange starts to happen. We start bending over backwards to preserve something that was only meant to be temporary.

I'm talking to myself here. After dealing with a series of challenges for the week, I found myself wondering if I should change jobs. I was up thinking intensely about how I could prepare, how I could make the transition, and ping ponging thoughts in my mind about my weaknesses in my profession. That's when a voice told me to go to sleep. I obeyed.

I realized that staying up all night thinking about whether or not I should switch to a new teaching location did not do me any justice. I realized that I was using my energy and precious time trying to save a profession that I wasn't plan on keeping. In a nut shell, I needed to refocus.

I had to stop and ask myself about my goals. What do I really do in this life? What are you working so hard for? Are you working this long and hard working and full time job and coming home to work on your dream just to stay in a broken educational system for 30 years? 

Now, don't get me wrong. I do love teaching. And, one of my biggest goals is to create a legendary educational resource for people on the level of Scholastic. (A girl can dream, right?) However, I must be honest with myself.

My whole entire life, I've dreamed of a creative experience where I could be free from the rat race. To free myself from the 9-5 and live life according to my own standards of success. Being a writer, entrepreneur, and unconventional teacher (motivating people who actually crave to be taught or who thirst for knowledge) are my goals. So, why am I putting my focus on the temporary things that don't align with those goals?

Every now and again I have to check myself for a little inventory. I have to make sure that I'm on the right track with what I want to do in my life. I revisit my goals, communicate them to the atmosphere, to my husband, to myself. If you don't know where you want to go in life, then how in the world do you know if your daily activities are in alignment with your goals?

So, here I am with a renewed sense of energy. My focus is on my heart's desire and not trying to desperately hold on to something temporary knowing good and well I am not seeking for it to last anyways. Yes, I want to be able to leave my 9-5 on my own terms. And yes, I'm grateful for my opportunities. But, I'm not sweating it now. I'm just focused on being useful and continue to work on my work.

Don't try to hold on to things that you know weren't meant to last in the first place. Relationships, jobs, mindsets, you name it. All they do is suck up the energy you need to fulfill your dreams. It's time to prioritize and focus on our true goals. Don't preserve the temporary.