85. Thankful Thursday #12: When God Gives You the Answer

I have so many thoughts swimming in my head that I don't even know where to begin. Life is so amazing, and I'm just relishing in its goodness. Things seem to have come full circle. I'm so incredibly blessed right now and in awe, but allow me to back up and give structure to an already sporadic gratitude session. 

This morning, as I was driving to the doctor's office, I began my daily prayer session. After thanking God for blessing me with the basic necessities of life, including health, love, food, clothing, shelter, time off (amen to that), family, money in the bank, etc., I then asked for help.

For the past few days, I've been immersed in motivational material because I've been feeling like I'm at a standstill.

Yes, I blog daily, and yes I'm writing my first novel. But, there're some days where I feel like I don't exactly do enough. Like I'm just twirling my thumbs and not utilizing my time like I should. I feel that I should be making more moves toward my goals.

I asked the Lord for guidance. For an opportunity, a sign, a word, anything that could help me give my day-to-day routines more structure. 

I vowed to keep my eyes, ears, and heart open. Lo and behold, I got the answer.

In a previous post, I mentioned how I started actively collecting my journals in the year 2005. That's nearly 12 years of consistent documentation of my life. For some reason, I had a sudden urge to re-read a particular journal today, and when I tell you I received the answers to my prayers, it wasn't funny. I mean look at the front of this journal:

The old journal from August 31, 2014 to January 21, 2015

The old journal from August 31, 2014 to January 21, 2015

It was meant for me to pick up that journal. It was my message. 

I learned from that moment that you have to trust and KNOW that every answer will be revealed to you. Just stay alert. 

I went from feeling like I didn't have much direction during the day to getting a non-stop flow of ideas that I could implement in a more structured manner. I was mostly excited that I finally have an answer for those times when my laborious editing sessions make me want to pluck my eyes out, and I'm craving for an additional project.

You want to know what else is pretty comical? Re-reading my journal reminded me how although I've grown spiritually as a person, deep down I'm still the same person when it comes to my dreams, goals, passions.

Everything that I've ever wanted -- becoming a best-selling author, creating e-learning programs for various audiences, owning a business, creating uplifting organizations for young people, etc. -- has always been inside of me.

I've literally been saying the same things for YEARS! It's actually quite insane when I think about it. It makes me wonder why it's taking me so long to get any of it done. However, with a newfound work ethic, more guidance, direction, and determination, I have no doubt that all that and more will come to pass. It's inevitable.

With a desire this strong, it literally has no choice but to happen. 

So, I end this Thankful Thursday by saying, I appreciate the Lord for answering my prayers and leading me to something I've been sitting on this entire time.

Also, here's some parting advice: appreciate the breadcrumbs that you leave for yourself. Whether it's through a journal, music album, podcast, artistic portfolio, photos, whatever, pay attention to the clues you leave for yourself.

You never know what type of revelation --or goldmine-- that you're sitting on.