As proud as I am of my productivity from today, I can honestly say my body is screaming for the bed. I've had a headache for 12 hours, and although I am committed to my workload, I'll say it wasn't an easy push to get it all done. But hey,
I guess that's what the grind looks like.
It's early mornings and late nights. It's working on weekends and holidays, too. It's discipline. It doesn't complain. It is goal-oriented, consistent, and persistent. And you know what? I welcome it.
Today, while I was sitting at the doctor's office, I didn't merely waste time looking up at the tile on the ceiling. In fact, something within in me said "Stop overthinking things all the time and just do it." That one sentence birthed my first post on Medium.com entitled: "Stop F***ing around and Jump In. #LiveLife."
Here's an excerpt:
"Stop overthinking all the time.
Stop being so scared to show emotion and be vulnerable.
Stop being scared of wanting more.
Stop being scared of freedom.
Stop being scared of your inner child, the imaginative being who believed conquering the world was possible.
Stop being scared of speaking up, being seen, being rejected. You’ve felt rejection before; new rejection shouldn’t be that frightening. Move on.
Stop making excuses and never getting things done.
Stop believing that you can’t be successful.
Stop holding your ideas and dreams on the inside of you."
There was something about writing this post that gave me a sense of urgency and confidence to not worry so much about the "perfection" of artistic production. To simply get lost in what you love to do is a prize within itself. It lets you know that you're making a deeper connection with your gift and that there are more things in life than currency.
As I continue working on my second article, I step back and celebrate the successes that I do have. I'm proud that I was able to be proactive and not spend so much time thinking about things so much until I end up procrastinating or worse, talking myself out of the things I said I was going to do. I'm proud that I took full advantage of being on my creative grind.
I acknowledge the fact that my grind will cause sore muscles, tired eyes, the occasional headache, sweat, blood, even tears, but it comes with the territory. And, I welcome it knowing that I must do the things others wouldn't in order to have the things that most people don't.
Well, it's safe for me to say it's time for me to go to sleep. I've been writing and researching since 6 a.m. It is now a half hour before midnight.